As a child I was always the quiet one. Compared to my sister I was actually the boring sister. Or at least that was what I thought of myself. She was outgoing, had lot of friends. I wasn’t outgoing and didn’t had many friends.
Now I know I am not only just shy but also an introvert. I didn’t knew then but knowing this for couple years I am becoming more me. It is who I am. Yes I can be shy but I am realise I am not extremely shy but an introvert. The combination of those two makes me look like I am extremely shy in some situations.
When I realised that I was an introvert I felt like I finally understood why I needed a weekend to recharge. I always thought that was because of my physical situation. But I realised I just needed to recharge from people too.
I felt like, knowing that I am an introvert, some things makes sense. I just enjoy being home alone, well is not that difficult because I am single. I don’t feel like I want to go out every weekend. I do however make sometimes many appointments when I feel depression coming up. To make sure that I don’t shut the world out, I go out. That helps me very often to deal with depression and a good reminder for me I am not alone. I have great friends around me that accept me for me.
However I do wish I have the guts like one of my good friend. She goes on her own to the movie. I am like, really? I don’t know. I do go alone to the museum, so why not to a movie? I honestly don’t know. I mean as an introvert it must be great to go out alone, but I think my shyness is a bit stronger. I admire her for doing it and I hope that someday I will do it too, I have to look for my guts, not sure where it hide. I was talking with her about that, because there is no one that wants to go to the newest Star Trek movie with me. The ones that want to go with me don’t live close. So… no Star Trek. Then she said, go alone, I was like, haha, yeah right! But she was serious. Who knows maybe someday, somewhere in the future I might be boldly go where everyone go to.
Anyway, to realise that I am an introvert was for sure an eye-opener for me and I am okay with that, because that is who I am!